I’ve been saying ever since I started college that I would try to lose weight and look decent without a shirt. I came close a couple of times but I never succeed. I have the motivation to change but not the support system. I hate that my girlfriend tries to keep my spirits up and tell me I’m not fat but I honestly hate that. Blatant lying about this kills me and that’s not the poor self-esteem talking.
I did a cardio workout today for the first time in a long time. I was worn out or extremely tired. I felt good afterwards. I felt accomplished. I like that feeling. However, it’s so much more comfortable to just sit and watch Netflix than getting up and doing something. Now that I’ve graduated, I don’t have a support system and my motivation lacks even more. I’m tricking myself into thinking that a labor-intensive job for four days a week coupled with working another job will help keep my heart rate up and keep burning some fat. I know it won’t actually work but I don’t know what to do.
I want to change and shock everyone by going to C2E2 this year as Batman and being fit for it; by not being Fatman. The girls I’m going with are training as well for their roles so I need to as well. I’ve got 8 months to be performance ready.
I’m so not cut out for this.